Just Life

It’s hard to be far, 

From something you want too bad, 

Like a distance so large, 

And obstacles too many, 

Misleading you from the path, 

Of your so called destiny. 

But then sometimes I think, 

Is that what I really want, 

Why is it so hard to get, 

If it is really meant to be. 

I have always been a victim of 

Life’s unfair game, 

Always making it hard, 

Whatever be my aim. 

I am tired, I want to rest, 

That ain’t happening, Life’s at its best, 

Screaming doesn’t help, nor does crying, 

You often give up, or you might die trying, 

For someone in clouds, it’s just a joke, 

He would be enjoying it with some fries and a coke, 

I am just a puppet, controlled by strings, 

I am just a slave, and he is the king.

You

I wish I could fall, 

On a cozy bed, 

With a friendly face, 

Where I can rest, 

Listening the voices, 

As my world  falls apart, 

To an all-time low, 

But I don’t fear, 

For the coming storm, 

With you by my side, 

Keeping me warm, 

Holding my hands, 

To face the world, 

And I will rise, for you 

And I will rise with you again.

Window

In my gloomy house, 

Amidst the darkness spreading so vast, 

There lies a window, 

A link between now and past,

I see a shadow, 

Vanishing so fast, 

Into the woods, thick and thin, 

Holding back all the mystery within, 

The window is smoky, broken, and tinted, 

Tears of mine fall on it like rain, 

Colorful memories have stained it a lot, 

Some dark moments have left a dot, 

There are days when window is shining, 

Beams of sunshine make it reflect, 

Some days go by with dark clouds upon, 

Leaving the window to get infect, 

So when I look out of window what do I see? 

It’s just a shadow, a better version of me, 

So long have I waited for the shadow to return 

It has deep scars, not a hint of pain, 

Of my wrong choices and attempts in vain, 

The window is the only constant, 

In my transient life, 

Reminding me of things, hidden deep inside me, 

Accomplishments, Failures, Joys and Worries. 

Of what I have done, what it has made me!

Past

It’s painful to think you never will be mine,

But it’s even more painful to realize I knew it all the time.

The best thing ever happened to me has already happened,

Now thinking of it just gets my wounds deepened.

Sadness and misery are now things of past,

Though it was precious, not long it last.

The scars I can’t see are hardest to heal,

You stole it all, nothing left to feel.

For what it’s worth I had an affair,

But for its aftermath, I wasn’t prepared.

I wasn't your kind, as you said,

You are not worth for the tears I shed.

Be it Sunny or Rain, it’s all in vain,

It’s the part that remained, that causes the pain,

Again and Again!!

Miss you...

When you are gone and nobody is around,

I sometimes sit down to feel the pain profound,

The highs and lows that we dared,

The joy and sorrow that we shared,

Of situations that made me to do like that,

Which made you cry and hate me so bad, 

Due to vagabond life and disturbed mind,

I am not being able to behave so kind,

But that doesn't means I should treat you like this,

And behave like I am never gonna miss,

Just wanted to say please understand me

I am stubborn but asking for an invisible plea

You are all over my mind,Whatever I do,

Just wanted to say ”I miss you”!

Away....

Everything I love goes away,

Everything I hate goes away,

Everything I need goes away,

Everything I want goes away,

Everything that has to do anything

With me goes away.

I am afraid it would happen with you,

You’re too going to leave me one day,

I hate that, I don’t want it,

No way, No way, No way.

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I seldom need anyone in life,

I rarely acknowledge someone’s presence,

I am shy expressing myself,

I rarely care about someone’s essence,

But then also after so much trouble,

When I said, “I needed her”,

She goes away.

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I often blame God for this,

I think he is involved,

Creating errors in my path,

And the problems can’t be solved.

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I remember those lonely days of MAY,

Endless feeling but no-one to say,

Brimming with love but whom to display,

You were the reason, You were away.

Years passed away waiting for you,

Life was like dead end, nothing was new.

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The day I met you, I want to live that again,

It’s so pure and fresh in my memory lane,

Looking at you, that’s a precious view,

You redefined for me the color Blue,

But I am sad because in the end,

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(Ending 1)

Everything I love goes away.

So are you going to leave me one day?
Leaving me stranded , crushed in dismay,
I wouldn't blame you,It's not your fault,
What I can do now, can only pray,
Please be with me , I am not so bad,
Love you a lot , for that I am glad.

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(Ending 2)

Everything I love goes away,

Everything I hate goes away,

Everything I need goes away,

Everything I want goes away,

Everything that has to do anything

With me goes away.

Lost

O Dear it happened,

What I feared for happened,

What I didn’t wanted happened,

What I always did to you happened.

Yes you wouldn’t believe it,

How can I be like this,

I am sensible, I am brave,

Dear you made me happened.

It started with a small drop,

And there was another,

The beginning was a trickle,

And then with a ripple,

It was all uncontrollable.

It’s like I have been saving it for years,

It was mine, it was for you,

Dear you made me happened.

 I didn’t enjoyed those moments,

But now I experienced what it felt like,

Yes dear it happened.

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I cried, I cried out loud,

It was like a hidden cloud,

Of sorrows,worries,guilts,shames,

Buried over through years,

Those made me come in tears.

And I don’t want to stop,

Have been a total flop,

But now it’s the last one,

Would never do this again,

Faced already enough pain.

Life has stranded me,

In the middle of nowhere,

But I am going to fight,

Coz now I don’t even care,

For barriers,excuses,obstacles and loss,

That slowed down my pace,

Life is hard, it’s not pretty,

Everyone is following the rat race.

It’s tough to survive like this,

With so much expectations at stake,

May I be able to win it,

Always wanted to cut a cake,

For victory,celebrations,joy and happiness,

With all my dear ones by my side,

It’s a dream, one that’s possible,

In my heart it reside.

departed fate

Yes she tried, the best she could,

To make him realize how important is she,

For him, for her, for us, for we,

But he never understood,

Though he wanted to be,

The one for her, her mystery man.

She tried so much, the best she can,

But he never understood,

Remain stiff like a wood.

Seems like testing her patience limit,

It was becoming his regular habit.

Baffled, Frustrated, Dejected, Disappointed,

The girl was left completely exhausted.

Why is he doing all this,

Acting like he is never going to miss,

She wants to know,

He is never going to show,

The tensed threads are now ready to break,

The relation ending up like a piece of cake,

The stage was set, now the two are apart,

Alone they came & Alone they depart.

You cried

There you cried, you cried again,

Some part of me died ,it died again,

What else can I say,

Keep yourself away,

As much as you can,

Coz I don’t ever wanted to hurt you,

But it’s the “me”

The devil one you see,

Who takes every opportunity,

To make you suffer from pain,

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It causes the rain,

The rain of your tears,

Falling down your face,

The pretty face you have,

How bad it looks,

With all smile gone,

It’s just because of me

that hurts you a lot,

it's more like a bullet shot.

You know what,day-by-day,

I am getting good at it,

With the little devil’s aid,

Who doesn’t care for others,

And leave them betrayed,

I want to face you,

To sort out this problem,

I know you don’t want to see me,

I am no-more welcome,

Can you just listen, Can we just talk,

I want to hear your voice , I want to go on a walk,

With you, With you, With you,

Yes you, Only you, Just you.

There is nothing else so precious for me,

Nothing else can be so pure,

Just once o-dear look at me,

For me it’s more than a cure.

You dear

Hello ,

Voila ,weekend again .. 

Today the uninteresting hectic lectures forced me to carve out something.It's like the hidden me.It helps me to understand myself better I think.Didn't knew this would come up.

You dear was my life,

the life which moved along with you,

I said " I am there for you",

Everyday!

But dear its just because,

You always stayed.

Whenever I hurt you,whenever I scream,

I know it makes you fell bad ,

But dear you stayed.

I always make you abide ,

and sometimes I leave you aside,

But dear you stayed.

I took you for granted ,

I never replied,

I ignored your calls,

But dear you stayed.

And then one day you were gone.

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I was left alone ,

It was like flesh left without the bones.

Now I dream of you day and night

Picturing you in front of my sight,

You were my sunshine ,You were my rain ,

and here I am enduring lot of pain.

I regret the things i did,

was totally behaving like a stupid kid,

You were right ,I was wrong 

May be one day I would sing this song.

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I am surrounded by despair

Now i know what does it means ,

to be there for someone whom you care,

I am sorry I was not the one,

didn't took it seriously and missed all the fun,

Now I remember what you once said to me

You are there but not there for me.

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