The Last one.

This is this blog's last post. I thought about it much earlier but never got time to actually write about it. The shutters for this Stochastic world will never open up ever again. While i enjoyed my parts of glory and happiness and sorrows and introspection with retrospection of days when i started it and how i would indulge my whole day just thinking about the content of next post. This platform served me to express what ever i felt in a way whatever i choose to. The kind of openness and relief it provided me was surreal. While i don't indulge in any kind of sadness and wallow about my last post,i am just going to enjoy and cherish the posts (read moments) which were once part of my life,part of me ,part of everything like pockets full of sunshine trying to beam again for another sunset.

So my fellow co passengers on this journey of life i am hopeful ,may we ever meet again and cross our paths and behave like long lost souls, talking about the how wonderful and delightful the life has been since.

Good bye!

Feelings

Hello World!
Have to write this post.
Was feeling like something very important is missing out of my life.
Have been reading a lot ..
Just want to share Some random feelings that we experience day-to-day.
There names are odd but the feelings are real.



Sonder

the realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own—populated with their own ambitions, friends, routines, worries and inherited craziness—an epic story that continues invisibly around you like an anthill sprawling deep underground, with elaborate passageways to thousands of other lives that you’ll never know existed, in which you might appear only once, as an extra sipping coffee in the background, as a blur of traffic passing on the highway, as a lighted window at dusk.

Nodus tollens

the realization that the plot of your life doesn’t make sense to you anymore—that although you thought you were following the arc of the story, you keep finding yourself immersed in passages you don’t understand, that don’t even seem to belong in the same genre—which requires you to go back and reread the chapters you had originally skimmed to get to the good parts, only to learn that all along you were supposed to choose your own adventure.

Gnossienne

 a moment of awareness that someone you’ve known for years still has a private and mysterious inner life, and somewhere in the hallways of their personality is a door locked from the inside, a stairway leading to a wing of the house that you’ve never fully explored—an unfinished attic that will remain maddeningly unknowable to you, because ultimately neither of you has a map, or a master key, or any way of knowing exactly where you stand.

Adronitis
frustration with how long it takes to get to know someone—spending the first few weeks chatting in their psychological entryway, with each subsequent conversation like entering a different anteroom, each a little closer to the center of the house—wishing instead that you could start there and work your way out, exchanging your deepest secrets first, before easing into casualness, until you’ve built up enough mystery over the years to ask them where they’re from, and what they do for a living.

Catoptric tristesse

 the sadness that you’ll never really know what other people think of you, whether good, bad or if at all—that although we reflect on each other with the sharpness of a mirror, the true picture of how we’re coming off somehow reaches us softened and distorted, as if each mirror was preoccupied with twisting around, desperately trying to look itself in the eye.

These are just a few .. For the entire lot .. Visit here

End of 2012 !

Another activity and attempt to escape from the usual. This place feels awesome. However I couldn't get time to be  regular here but it feels great to be here and pour your heart out. When I come here I don't know what I am going to write about but still manage to write something. .Well it's an another phenomenal year to an end . * 2012 *. On a personal front this year saw me completing Engineering , Getting a 'Sarkari' job , and  becoming a Corporate from a Graduate. The year is coming to an end and the best time is to spend it with your loved ones , friends and family . Happy New Year ppl!!

You can’t hurt me bcoz I am already torn, 

You can’t teach me bcoz I am already gone, 

You can’t find me bcoz I am already lost, 

You can't change me bcoz I am already past

You can’t buy me bcoz I am not for sale, 
You can't have me with your magical charm

But 

If you love me , I will fall into your arms.

TV series till now..

Sitting at home idly made me recollect the TV shows I have watched in last 4 years, Here’s presenting before you the list of shows that I have watched for at least one entire season. I was little bit surprised to know the total number is above 50 (60 actually!). I am worried,if i am missing any??.

Well long live free internet TV & long live America!!

24, 2 Broke Girls, Awkward, Anger Management, Arrested Development, 

Band of Brothers, Bewitched, Boardwalk Empire, Breaking Bad, Breakout Kings 

Californication, Chemistry, Chuck, Cougar Town, Coupling (UK), Criminal Minds, Dexter, 

Entourage, Episodes, Extreme Chef, 

Freaks and Geeks, Friends, Femme Fatales, Game of Thrones, Gary Unmarried, Girls, 

Happy Endings, Homeland, How it’s Made, How I met your Mother, How to make it in America, Hung, 

Impractical Jokers, Jekyll, Joey, Leverage, Lost, Man v/s Food, Mildred Pierce, Mr. Bean, 

Modern Family, New Girl, Planet Earth, Prison Break, 

Skin to the max, Sherlock ,Spartacus, So you think you can Dance? 

Time Warp, The Big Bang theory, The Class, The hard times of R J Berger, 

The Inbetweeners(UK), The Lost Room, The Mentalist, The Pacific, Tin man, 

Top Chef, True Blood, Two and a Half men.

Pieces of Advice

Some thoughtful pictures collected across the web.

Returning to Blogosphere

Posting after such a long hiatus, that it seems like this is not even my blog anymore. A big relief came in like a cool breeze that calmed me down for the rest of my life. Finally I am not unemployed anymore.I can now proudly call myself a Petroleum Engineer .A big task can now be crossed off for a while from my ambition list ha.!! So what’s new, KKR won the IPL and Italy and Spain are in Finals of EURO 2012. Petrol prices are going up and down. Heat waves are now getting serious on what they do best with their Good-old chap Mr. Global Warming catching up. Our Prime minister passed yet another session with all his murmuring and straight-hand walks. Mukherjee and Sangma are fighting for President seat(the most worthless yet respected honorary post which can be provided in the country).

On a personal end, started few new Tv series and novels.

For the Tv lovers add Dexter to your “must-watch-before-die”category. Awesome story,Awesome crimes,Mind blowing background commentary, Cool sets and to top it all , Intelligent character.The protagonist is Blood splatter expert in Miami Police department and he kills people for a reason too.So he catches Criminals while he himself is Serial killer. The best part of the show is non-stop commentary of the protagonist throughout the episode which is flawless. Apart of that, the other supporting characters, seems like are designed for the show only. The look like being handpicked to work on the show and provided a wonderful job.

Yes I have already watched 24, Criminal minds, Mentalist, White Collar, and to compare them with Dexter can’t be justified. The basic difference being all these have one sided approach of the Good people while in Dexter you can witness the dark side, i.e.the other side of the coin as well, hence changes the entire show’s perception. Be prepared for witnessing cut,sliced, grind-ed,chain sawed ,human body parts as it’s full of them, but not like as depicted in SAW movie way but in a way more elegant manner.It’s not easy for a Tv series to get an above 9 rating on IMDB.


For the novel lovers , I finished reading Immortals of Meluha, and Between the Assassination.

Immortals of Meluha - What to say about a book released in 2010 and still topping the Bestseller list. Amish tripathi has opened up the gates to themes inspired from mythology.It was enough for those chessy ,cute love stories that every passout from an engineering and management writers had begun to write.No offence but enough of them already. We all have read Chetan bhagat nice mushy mushy coochy coochy stories which kind of started my encounters with novels. But as we move toward a meaningful life and weird questions of “Who am I?” and “What is my purpose of my existence?” pop up here and there our empty minds’ devil’s workshop, its time for a change and this is the book which can provide it to you.While maintaining the charm of a romantic lover as Shiva,it intensifies and glorifies on a man’s journey of life. Kudos to overall execution and plot setting.A definite page turner. While the book is Part one of Shiva trilogy, the other two parts-The Secret of Nagas also a bestseller, and The Oath of Vayuputras(to be published) are surely going to hit the right note as well.






Between the Assassination-By Man Booker prize winner Arvind Adiga ,is a charmer. I bought it because I was deeply inspired by his previous novel “The White tiger”. The novel revolves around the infamous assassination of Our beloved Prime Ministers Mrs.Indira Gandhi and Mr.Rajiv Gandhi in a place called Kittur down in South India. Though the book has no direct mention of any assassination, the story revolves around in parts taking characters from various strata of society as it shows the feelings, the hardships, the human bonds, and their life in Kittur,the town serves as a mutual character which forms as a backdrop and a lively character in every story. By this collection of short stories, the various ways of life are dealt with at a steady pace where changing and modernized India tries to remodel the face of Kittur. An inspiring read for those interested in quotes from nature, poverty and luxury life clashes, and human emotions.

To end it all I would like to quote one dialogue from Dexter.

Kill one man , and you're Murderer,

Kill thousands and you're Conqueror,

Kill them all and you're God.

Moods

Just Life

It’s hard to be far, 

From something you want too bad, 

Like a distance so large, 

And obstacles too many, 

Misleading you from the path, 

Of your so called destiny. 

But then sometimes I think, 

Is that what I really want, 

Why is it so hard to get, 

If it is really meant to be. 

I have always been a victim of 

Life’s unfair game, 

Always making it hard, 

Whatever be my aim. 

I am tired, I want to rest, 

That ain’t happening, Life’s at its best, 

Screaming doesn’t help, nor does crying, 

You often give up, or you might die trying, 

For someone in clouds, it’s just a joke, 

He would be enjoying it with some fries and a coke, 

I am just a puppet, controlled by strings, 

I am just a slave, and he is the king.

You

I wish I could fall, 

On a cozy bed, 

With a friendly face, 

Where I can rest, 

Listening the voices, 

As my world  falls apart, 

To an all-time low, 

But I don’t fear, 

For the coming storm, 

With you by my side, 

Keeping me warm, 

Holding my hands, 

To face the world, 

And I will rise, for you 

And I will rise with you again.

Moonlight kiss

Just a song that I love, Moonlight Kiss by Bap Kennedy

I can feel my heart 

And its fit to burst 

I try to clean it up 

But I just get worse 

I wish I could fall 

On a night like this 

Into your loving arms 

For a moonlight kiss 

I thought I saw your face 

In the evening sky 

On a lonesome cloud 

That was drifting by 

I wish I could fall 

On a night like this 

Into your loving arms 

For a moonlight kiss 

You got someone else 

Maybe its for the best 

Since I took the cure 

For happiness 

But I'd trade it all 

On a night a like this 

For your loving arms 

And a moonlight kiss 

In your loving arms 

And a moonlight kiss